Choke it Down or Drown

In the wake of losing Vail, we pretty much live day to day. Ok, more like hour to hour. Despite needing to focus on the future for basic life functions, like meal planning or activities for Aspen, it continues to prove to be a huge challenge for me. And mostly, that is because the weight of her loss is so heavy that it forces me to chose between choking down the pain or drowning in it.